Even when I am in bed my thoughts rush to you, my eternally beloved, now and then joyfully, then again sadly, waiting to know whether Fate will hear our prayer--To face life I must live altogether with you or never see you. Yes, I am resolved to be a wanderer abroad until I can fly to your arms and say that I have found my true home with you and enfolded in your arms can let my soul be wafted to the realm of blessed spirits--alas, unfortunately it must be so--You will become composed, the more so you know that I am faithful to you; no other woman can ever possess my heart--never--never--Oh God, why must one be separated form her who is so dear. Yet my life in V[ienna] at present is a miserable life--Your love has made me both the happiest and the unhappiest of mortals--At my age I now need stability and regularity in my life--can this coexist with our relationship?--Angel, I have just heard that the post goes every day--and therefore I must close, so that you may receive the letter immediately--Be calm; for only by calmly considering our lives can we achieve our purpose to live together--Be calm--love me--Today--yesterday--what tearful longing for you--for you--you--my life--my all--all good wishes to you--Oh, do continue to love me--never misjudge your lover's most faithful heart. ever yours ever mine ever ours.
To my Mom, Sorry for threatning your condition as a Woman. Thank You for being my Mom.
"A woman may be, like a man, so swayed by a great love that there is not a day in the whole month when her lover's touch, his voice, the memory of his smile, does not stir her into the thrilling longing for the uttermost union".
The stumble of her high heels down those stairs sounded like someone playing the piano for the first time. Despite all the rambling, an innocent elegance floated in the air that brought a sweet melody to my ears. Such melody, such melody, it must be a young lady? I thought. What else can explain the charming way how she walks with high heels.
"To be or not to be" claimed once William Shakespeare.
Performance or 'performativity'? Judith Butler raises and argues in both her books, 'Gender Trouble', and 'Bodies That Matter', a new perspective towards gender and sexuality studies. I dare to say that cinema is a reflextion of our society. Rodrigues brings to Portuguese screens a matter that should be more consistent in peoples' minds. Matters that should be a concern of all comunities in order to achieve knowledge of who we are in this post-modern world. Rodrigues explores Butler's questions on performance and 'performativity'. A discussion to have in mind further ahead.
Dra. Adriana Bebiano
Dra. Clara Keating
Dra. Teresa Tavares
My 'Queer' Diary.
. . .'a true writer keeps his/her own Diary'
"Everybody earns a second chance. This is mine!
What is it that makes us Humans?
Something you can programme?
You can't put it into a chip . . .
It's the Streghth of the Human Heart".
'Gender Trouble'
«Studies on «gender trouble» breaksdown the essencialist and heterosexist perspectives, proposing a new understandment beyond the binary sex and gender. Such breakdown will bring up the thought that the history of feminity should be considered/revised because our society, still prodominatly heterosexist and patriarchal, needs to expand its spaces for diversity and invest in forces for that change of paradigma».
PURE QUEER LOVE True Magical Words are kept in A True Magical Box
'E é assim amando-te serenamente, que o meu coração se aquieta... Consagrando-se inteiramente a ti, fazendo-me sentir forte, fazendo-me sentir Homem'.
'Estou aqui para ti, sempre, for the good and the bad, and very good things will surely come our way'...
'É esta sensação de leveza que me atravessa, permite-me amar-te mais e mais intensamente'.
'Acompanhar-te-ei no caminho da pureza...Acompanhar-te-ei na procura de uma Verdade Maior...E acompanhar-te-ei na grandeza deste Amor que despertou em nós uma Nova Vida'... 'Estava a escrever-te uma carta em pensamentos'.
'E eu amo-te tanto..E quero-te até ao fim do mundo'.
'Amo-te cada dia intensamente'.
'O meu amor por ti é um amor sem dúvidas. E magoar-te é algo que não faz parte dos meus planos... Let us Love and fear no more'.
'Mesmo que não o tenhas dito, é Amor Eterno o que sinto por ti. Em cada célula do meu corpo, em cada suspiro do meu coração, em cada grão de luz da minha alma. Respiro-te, amando-te, assim como te Amo''
'Flowers witness your presence through the appearsement of all my senses'..
'Salud y alegria, hermosura cria'
'Such amazing sincronicity'..
'May all this Love we feel inside be the inspiration to rise up each day, with an open smile in our chests. My sporit is with you, my Love. And we do love Mondays'..
'I hunger for a word from you'
'My body hungers to be loved by yours, true love waits'
'A wave of Love from my heart to yours'
'E eu amo-te com toda a minha alma e é para ti que vai o amor maior que nela existe'.
'Sinto-me cheio de vitalidade e motivação, e com o coração em estado de graça. E a certeza de que me esperas ao final da tarde, dá-me ainda mais alento'..
'Vontade de te ver, de te falar, de te ouvir, de te sentir'..
'A minha cama sem ti é um deserto'..
'E é por amar-te assim tanto, que a minha alegria se multiplica até ao infinito'..
'To wake up and have your sweet and tender words is the most perfect breakfast you could bring me. And these flowers you'd offer me have filled my heart with colours and given me a new soul to my day'.
...'but I look up and a rainbow appears like a smile from heaven...and darling I can't help thinking that smile is yours'.
'So just let it all come out...sparkles and smiles...and from this far side of the ocean you'll make me feel the happiest, most loved, and greatful man in the universe'.
'That is the man that I am proud to finally have found to share all that lives in him'.
'It's the memory of you the fuel to my happiness'.
'I'll be the best pancake you had ever tasted'.
'e quando tu não estás, é a tua essência que eu procuro em todas as coisas'.
'The warm feeling of your words wears my heart like a globe'.
'Encontro em poemas tudo o que te quero dizer'.
...'e na minha vida, o milagre és tu'.
'Espero-te. Não tenho outro ofício. Amar-te. Não tenho outro destino'.
'Queria ouvir a tua voz que me apazigua tanto...entregar-te um abraço quente e aconchegante...e após isso, entregar-me suavemente ao sono, na tua omnipresênça'..
'Tu és a oferenda mais preciosa que a vida alguma vez me fez e que me sinto infinitamente grato por te ter encontrado...eu amo-te, de um amor sublime'.
'I feel hipnotized by the thinking of you. It's like a blessing, a soft madness..a scream in the centre of the soul'..
'My heart becomes so orphan'..
'It shows how deeply connected our souls are'..
'I send you a soft breeze of love, passion, and unity. For you are the one who shows me what true love can mean'..
'E tal a intensidade com que te amo, que não tenho termo de comparação possível, nem palavras à altura para poder descrever-to. À medida que me distâncio de ti, cresce um enorme vazio dentro de mim'..
'Estou contigo como único pensamento na mente, com toda a minha alma centrada em abraçar a tua, em dar-lhe calor, e amor, amor, amor, que é o que mais abunda em mim...amo-te de um amor que cura'.
...'e dou por mim aos berros no chuveiro a cantar: vou-te amando pouco a pouco, cada vez um pouco mais, eu te amo como um louco, e o amor nunca é demais'..